Now you see me now you don’t

From here…..

I have taken the blog private. I intended for other to be able to follow the trials and tribulations and the darker elements of my life. I did not intend it as a place to hurt the woman I’ve loved for 28 years. I did use it to vent on occasion, and some of that venting was aimed at her.

Not always deservedly. Depends on your viewpoint I suppose. I wish to apologize to her, but she’ll never see this.

She googled my name and found this. We talked and I reconsidered a lot of what I said. I decided it should stand, but going forward I should take her feelings into account. She had decided that she did not wish to read the comment sections. And truly some of those are worse than the original….and some are more explicit about my relationship with Megan. Unfortunately her ‘friends’ and ‘relatives’ decided she needed to know even though she’d told them she didn’t want to……. This caused her a lot of hurt and may have destroyed any hope of a friendly separation.

And I don’t blame her. I am partially at fault for some of the things I have written, but I also hold the asshat who decided that reading sections to her knowing it would hurt in the interest of the ‘truth’ was more important than considering her feeling and wishes.

So now it’s private.

I’ve moved into south east Hollywood, with a wonderful woman I’m sharing the place with. Just a friend folks. But Megan arrives Saturday night. I’ve told the boys she’s coming. And explained about her. Perhaps too much. I’m still trying to find balance. So then a call incensed about what I’d said. I live in multiple worlds. I don’t have a strong foundation and I don’t know where I’ll end up when the ground stops shaking. It’s late and I’m rambling.

So if you’re reading this you can assume you are someone I trust not to hurt those I still love but who can never truly understand….. and may not be able to travel beside me….

…to there.

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